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Nine of Swords and Page of Swords — The Deeper Meaning

You say the cutting thing first, so the hurt is one you chose — instead of one done to you.
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Nine of Swords and Page of Pentacles — The Deeper Meaning

You call it thinking it over. But you decided long ago — you're just waiting for the fear to give you permission.
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Nine of Swords and Page of Cups — The Deeper Meaning

You already know the thing. The sleepless nights are just the last place you can hide from having admitted it.
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Nine of Swords and Nine of Wands — The Deeper Meaning

You call it being careful. You haven't checked in years whether it's still just fear.
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Nine of Pentacles and Two of Wands — The Deeper Meaning

"I have enough" is the sentence you use to silence something you still want and won't say out loud.
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Nine of Pentacles and Two of Swords — The Deeper Meaning

It's not the choice that's hard. It's that the life waiting on the other side is one you'd have to live alone.
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Nine of Pentacles and Two of Pentacles — The Deeper Meaning

You're proud of how much you're holding — because if you weren't this needed, you wouldn't know who you are.
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Nine of Pentacles and Two of Cups — The Deeper Meaning

You're not healed. You're proud. And that's why you stopped reaching.
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