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Nine of Swords and Two of Swords — The Deeper Meaning

You keep calling it impossible. What you mean is unbearable — and those aren't the same thing.
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Nine of Swords and Two of Pentacles — The Deeper Meaning

You call it staying on top of things. It's fear, and you've made it look like competence.
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Nine of Swords and Two of Cups — The Deeper Meaning

It's not losing them you're bracing for. It's losing the person you were before you let someone matter this much.
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Nine of Swords and Three of Wands — The Deeper Meaning

Nothing's gone wrong. You just can't tell the difference anymore between calm and the calm before.
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Nine of Swords and Three of Swords — The Deeper Meaning

You stopped grieving the thing that happened. Now you're just afraid of what it says about you.
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Nine of Swords and Three of Pentacles — The Deeper Meaning

You're not afraid they'd judge you. You're afraid they'd agree with what you think about yourself at 3am.
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Nine of Swords and Three of Cups — The Deeper Meaning

You use everything good in your life as proof you're not allowed to hurt. It doesn't cancel it. It just buries it deeper.
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Nine of Swords and Ten of Wands — The Deeper Meaning

You never chose this load. It just accumulated — and now you can't tell it apart from yourself.
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